What if, your pay on May was put forward till June

and after almost 20 days of June, you still have not received your pay(both May and June)?

What if somebody told you that you will receive the money on

the 5th on every month but end up paying up almost 15 days late?

What if you lack 100% of your pay and you need to

pay for stuff and buy stuff?

What if those people who refuse to give the money

are family?

I feel so freaking used.

Like some kind of slavery.

Here I am trying my best to provide the best

for the kids and nothing comes out of it.

I am not doing this ONLY for the satisfaction of seeing them succeed.

I am also doing this for the money.

We made a deal and the deal is not met.

I feel like screaming now.

How fair is it for me to wait when you should be giving me

my money on time?

I understand that sometimes people have financial problems

and they can't afford to give on time.

BUT more than 1 month late. (that's too mch face given)

and plus, the least you could do is to

tell me so I do NOT have to wait and scurry for money

and also I do not have to ASK for the money like

a freak. After asking for the money (at least 3 days after dateline),

and you said you cannot give it to me at that moment,

I feel all guilty (when I am not supposed to.)

It's my money.

I have the right to claim it.

What if your pay was on hold?

and bills are waiting for you?

ARRRGHHHH!!!

I feel so so so so so so used.

(I know I should expect this from family

bt this is tking advantage.. because it is NOT happening

for the first time)

P.S. You have the right to feel hurt if you

ever read this. because I have the right to

say what I feel.

PPS. I want it and I want it ASAP.

I was surprised myself.

But when someone called me today and said

that she wanted to meet me, I was pissed off.

Like I myself did not know what came over me.

I really just want to be alone.

You know, after spending quality time

with other people for quite some time,

I feel like i lack my own quality time.

The weekend before I surrounded myself with loads

of people at a wedding in a small house

where it is very hot.

And the most recent weekend was spent with the large

family doing all sorts of things.

So I seriously think I need the 'lone' time.

Just chilling in my room.

Doing nothing much..

I'm sorry to the someone that I yelled to.

I really dont want anybody disturbing me right now.

To those who understand,

I am a choleric-sanguine.

I have been sanguine for quite sometime now.

And the choleric in me is dying to reveal itself.

so the yelling is really basic human instinct (mine)

P.S. Sorry..

Annyeong haseyo
Okay.. with regards to my previous post...
about top 3 suju members that I like.
sungmin, is very likeable... very tempting to be one of the choices..
but i respect his fans so.. nehmind..

donghae is good looking and funny sometimes..
also a tempting choice..
but because of the fact that you may never see me on the face of the earth again
if i chose him, I didnt.

kibum.. haiz.. kibum on the other other other hand,
is not tempting at all to be chosen..
like huh?
who is kibum??
HAHAHA

DOT! SARANGHAE!!

KAMSAHAMIDA!!


P.S. I promise, this will be the last post of this sort.
in future posts, i will insert mature thoughts
and insights and not childish rubbish.
:)

Annyong haseyo.

KAMSA HAMIDAAAA!!!

(winks and giggles to dot)

Kyu Hyun oppa,